Day 67 pt 2

I have decided.

I no longer have the desire to live long.

In my current age with no sense of self love, I will be busy trying to love myself until I’m ready to love someone else.

It’s a long long road so I don’t think I will make it in time for “proper marriage age”.

I know that is not something I can foresee and decide but feelings matters.

Thus, I will live forward with the believes of I’m not going to be able to love anyone else until I love myself, and if I will have to live the rest of my life without a life partner, I won’t want to stay long in this world.

That’s it. It’s not that I’m gonna kill myself, but I give up trying to live long and look for happiness.

I’m very tired.

Why do I have to prepare to be a good women anyway?

Why do I have to prepare to be a wife-material anyway?

I own my life to my parents and they only want me to be happy, and I’m happy with my decision of giving up my dream of living a long good life with the love of my life.

I gave up.

Fuck all of you who thinks this will pass, it’s just a phase, you’ll find someone new. Just, fuck you all. Not everyone can move on and I don’t care if you think people who killed themselves because they are depressed are weak.

It’s their fucking choices.

I’m done.

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